Student Blog: Finally Living My Dream

I am moving to New York City in less than a week. I am moving to New York City in less than a week. I am moving. To the NEW YORK CITY. IN LESS THAN A WEEK. This is something that I have been dreaming about for easily 5 years, and it is finally happening. I cannot believe that it is finally happening. Everything is pretty much packed, so now I am just counting down the days and tying up loose ends. The only thing is, it doesn't feel real.

I am going to be in my second year, but like many others, have not stepped foot on campus. Before it was announced, I was painfully naive in believing that campus would be fully up and running like normal. I even started buying things for the dorm, finding roommates, and even ! getting excited about being in a new place. Then boom! Notification that we will be 100% online in the fall. Then about half way through the fall semester, boom, 100% online for spring. My dreams of living in the Big Apple were looking more and more like just that. A dream. Towards the beginning of summer, it was announced that we will be back in person.

I am now overpacked and ready to go. The only thing is, I feel like I am waiting for an email that is going to be like "LOL got y'all online again". Do I think this is going to happen, no, but the possibility is still there. It still feels like a dream. A dream that I have had for so long. I will be going to college in one of my favorite cities, meeting people who I have only seen or talked to online, and living on my own. I cannot wait, but the excitement is also mixed with fear.

What if I get lost? What if I am always distracted? What if I can't make friends? What if I made the wrong choice? But you see, life is full of what ifs. There are things that I just can't control. Things that I cannot plan for. These are the things that are stressing me out the most, though they shouldn't. It's really weird. I feel like I am a freshman in college, but in reality I have already completed two semesters. It all just feels so strange. I mean if this is how the rest of my life is going to be, I am a little excited. Never knowing what is going to happen. Life has always been like that even before the pandemic.

I hope that by the time I am moved in that this feeling goes away. The feeling of this dream. The fact that I am working all the time doesn't really help with the feeling. I have a very strong feeling that I am going to be working till the very last possible second that I can no longer. Even better was when I found out how I am going to need to come back home every weekend to work until someone gets hired to replace me.

Here is to a five year dream coming true.