Student Blog: Stevie Nicks was Right about Changes
And when I’m sick of changing… Another one happens…
This blog season has truly left me with reflections I hope to look back on and realize how far I’ve come. Without this outlet, I don’t think I would’ve been able to realize how vast my dreams are.
Writing about my love for the arts - especially dance - has left my heart on the table for what else my interests could bring. I’m currently an intern for my county's consumer protection department and as boring as that may sound (trust me I thought it would be boring too…), I’m slowly starting to find excitement in mundanity. I’m a social media intern and I’ve realized that as long as I’m creative - I’m happy. There is not one way I’m supposed to show up for myself, I can do it in various different ways.
I haven’t been very punctual with my blog deadlines (sorry Chloe…) these days, because life has been moving so fast since leaving my dance conservatory in Pittsburgh. I’ve spent a lot of time in therapy to strip myself of the negative impacts being in dance for so long has had on me. It’s been a tough couple of months to be honest. Unlearning all of the negative self-talk and ‘black-and-white’/’all-or-nothing thinking has been a rigorous course, but it’s something I know I’ll be fond of going back to school in the Fall. Also,... I’ll be going to Temple University in the fall now :) Guess I can’t escape Pennsylvania Haha! I’ll probably minor in dance or join a dance club, but I’m looking for something that’s not as strenuous on my body. Of course, I love being pushed - that’s why I danced for 16 years, but I’m ready to see what else I can give my energy to. One of my interests is to study exercise science. Since I’ve dealt with my fair share of injuries, I feel that it is only right to help others with what I’ve gone through personally. I hope to give people another chance at what they love, no matter if it is a sport or just casual, everyday life.
As much as talking it out has helped me be okay with stepping away from 15 years of my life, music has helped tremendously also. ‘Landslide’ by Fleetwood Mac is forever a timeless song about changing and ripping apart what was previously in your life and I think it might be my top song in my Spotify Wrapped this year. I don’t think I’ve gone a day without listening to the comforting melodies of someone I don’t even know. I think I might just be in my own form of music therapy.
One of the things I’ve learned to be okay with is changing feelings. Pursuing dance felt like the right thing for me at the time. My life revolved around it and it was truly all I knew. I dedicated so much time to it, as well as being an academically excelling student in high school, so I knew what it was like to have a lot on my plate and be used to being overwhelmed. But when you ignore your feelings for so long, it is only a matter of time before they come to the forefront of your mind and you are unable to ignore it. I urge everyone around me with a lot on their plate to take it easy. That is much easier said than done and I’m thankful that I learned at an early age (kind of), but burnout is no joke.
Since I’m going to be moving to Philly in a couple of months, it will make it the FOURTH city I’ve lived in! I’ve lived in New York City, Detroit, Pittsburgh and soon Philly! I don’t know how Philly will compare to NYC, but I have high hopes. I thoroughly believe NYC is the best city in the world and I’m completely aware that I’m biased, because I’m from there, but hey! You never know! I might become insane one day and think another city is greater… Which will never happen… But until then, I’ll be incredibly biased towards NYC.
GO KNICKS! KNICKS IN FOUR! LETS GO! SWEEP
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