Student Blog: The Return of Forever
Can you believe we made it here? It felt like it would take forever! But forever is finally here.
I have been given the wonderful opportunity to be cast in my first live production since the beginning of 2020 and boy, am I excited! This feeling is something I missed deeply. I have kind of forgotten what it felt like to go to rehearsals everyday and have the excitement of even memorizing lines.
The Crucible by Arthur Miller has been a show I have always wanted to do. It is such a classic play and to be able to do this as my first show back on stage is incredible.
Rehearsals have been so interesting and different. Seeing tangible beings and hearing others' voices live is such a weird feeling. However, it is an incredible feeling. You never really realize how much you miss something until you don't have it for a long time. That human connection is something that I truly cherish and will always hold on to from here on out, no matter how much my introverted brain tells me not to.
Acting and performing with others in a scene is amazing! I enjoyed having the experience of performing on zoom and all the things I did learn from that. I've said it once and I'll say it a million times more, but the feeling of live theatre will never be outshined.
I will be honest though, not every rehearsal has been rainbows and butterflies. I find myself often feeling extremely anxious and nervous. Those feelings of "am I good enough for this anymore?" and "can I actually still do this?" come up very frequently. It's just where my brain is at now. It's hard to suppress all of these feelings. It was hard to walk into a room full of fully vaccinated humans and not have to wear a mask anymore. It's been difficult to carry on in idealistic normalcy when deep down in the back of mind my brain is telling me to run away.
Being uncomfortable is good. Finding that balance between growth and being steadfast comes when you put yourself out there and try. If I hadn't even auditioned originally, I wouldn't have fallen in love with theatre again. And that's the biggest take away from this all. Falling in love with being home. The shattered pieces of my heart are coming together and I feel whole once
more.
I hope that if one day this ever does happen again, where we lose theatre, I won't be as devastated. Because you know what happens? Forever really does return
From This Author - Student Blogger: Josie Reynolds
Student Blog: All for the BestAugust 11, 2021
I often think about neglecting all of my feelings. I find it easier to ignore my emotions and hide them rather than presenting them to even myself. And that is what I have done for a long while. Now, the thoughts have meandered their way up out of the trenches of my mind and will not go away. They appear like unknown creatures to my eye. New and exciting, but mysterious and vague filled with venom that is kryptonite to parts of my heart. It is hard to contain them anymore. I know I will capture them and learn what to do with them. I will hone my attention on them all. I know that this is All For the Best, but man it feels agonizing.
Student Blog: The Return of ForeverJuly 6, 2021
I have been given the wonderful opportunity to be cast in my first live production since the beginning of 2020 and boy, am I excited! This feeling is something I missed deeply. I have kind of forgotten what it felt like to go to rehearsals everyday and have the excitement of even memorizing lines.
Student Blog: Here We Go AgainJuly 2, 2021
The last few months have been some of the most challenging times of my life thus far. A lot of my life has clouded my existence and for a while I thought I was alright. Until this past March, I had consistently ignored how much I was truly struggling. I needed to learn the truth in what it meant to be a human walking around this earth, and during a pandemic nonetheless.
Student Blog: In the Same BoatMarch 3, 2021
This semester, I had the privilege and honor to be cast in another production at Niagara University. Vital Signs is a collection of monologues for and about women. This show encapsulates the trials of what being a woman means. It has been super rewarding being in this show, however this experience has been very different and unique to anything I have experienced before.
BWW Blog: In My DreamsFebruary 17, 2021
At the end of the year last year, I felt good. I was super confident in coming back here. I thought it was the best choice. I missed my friends, I missed theatre, I missed going to actual classes instead of opening my laptop in my room.
