Riddled with indecision and anxiety, funny woman Christel Bartelse explores a twenty first century conundrum of many careerists. “What would it mean to become a first time mum on the verge of forty?... “ Would the baby even like her? Would she like the baby? How does she process the thought having an “alien” growing inside her body and would her va-jay-jay cope with the actual the birth? And then the major what-if-question. What if she's not pregnant: will society fully accept someone who has ticked the baby opt-out box deciding motherhood is not her desired path