Borderline Personality Disorder

[Mike Barrett]

Hi all. This is a bit random and Im not sure it belongs here or not, so I apologize in advance if this isn't proper. I suffer from BPD. Probably have most of my life (22) but have recently realized that keeping a job is just not something I can do. Im not sure why really. I go through therapy every week, work on meditations, take a few different anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds but they just aren't working, and I feel like self sabotage is just taking over. I almost look for a way out at every job I have while simultaneously working my ass off and trying to learn the new job/system but just cannot do it.

Is there anyone else on here who has BPD? I could really use some sort of advice right now, its a very difficult disease to live with daily and I seem to be at some sort of dead end. Don't really have many options to go to for advice on this in my life, and I know there are some great posters here who would provide a thoughtful response, which I thank in advance. 

[CarlosAlberto]

Mike Barrett said: "Hi all. This is a bit random and Im not sure it belongs here or not, so I apologize in advance if this isn't proper. I suffer from BPD. Probably have most of my life (22) but have recently realized that keeping a job is just not something I can do. Im not sure why really. I go through therapy every week, work on meditations, take a few different anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds but they just aren't working, and I feel like self sabotage is just taking over. I almost look for a way out at every job I have while simultaneously working my ass off and trying to learn the new job/system but just cannot do it.

Is there anyone else on here who has BPD? I could really use some sort of advice right now, its a very difficult disease to live with daily and I seem to be at some sort of dead end. Don't really have many options to go to for advice on this in my life, and I know there are some great posters here who would provide a thoughtful response, which I thank in advance."

I myself do not suffer from Bipolar Personality Disorder but if you need help the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) provides a wealth of resources and may have what you are looking for. 

NAMI

BPD Recovery Resources

I do hope you find the help you are seeking. Be well. 

[Mike Barrett]

CarlosAlberto said: "Mike Barrett said: "Hi all. This is a bit random and Im not sure it belongs here or not, so I apologize in advance if this isn't proper. I suffer from BPD. Probably have most of my life (22) but have recently realized that keeping a job is just not something I can do. Im not sure why really. I go through therapy every week, work on meditations, take a few different anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds but they just aren't working, and I feel like self sabotage is just taking over. I almost look for a way out at every job I have while simultaneously working my ass off and trying to learn the new job/system but just cannot do it.

Is there anyone else on here who has BPD? I could really use some sort of advice right now, its a very difficult disease to live with daily and I seem to be at some sort of dead end. Don't really have many options to go to for advice on this in my life, and I know there are some great posters here who would provide a thoughtful response, which I thank in advance."

I myself do not suffer from Bipolar Personality Disorder but if you need help the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) provides a wealth of resources and may have what you are looking for.

NAMI

BPD Recovery Resources

I do hope you find the help you are seeking. Be well."

Much appreciated, I will take a look! Wish you the best as well. 

[ahhrealmonsters]

Hi Mike - I do not have BPD, but I do a lot of mental health advocacy work. Are you doing DBT (dialectical behavior therapy)? That's the most common type of therapy for BPD. There are other types that work for other people, like psychodynamic. Unfortunately there's no quick fix, and treatment often takes a long time. Keep persisting and good luck!

[FindingNamo]

People say that dialectical behavioral therapy is one thing that helps a lot of people who have this diagnosis. It's an ongoing thing and it's something you have to agree to put the time into.


You bringing this up reminds me of something I meant to post a long time ago, and that's Pete Davidson of SNL is a hero for going public with his BPD diagnosis. It's not an easy thing to have or deal with or even go public with. There is so much struggle and shame and judgment involved. I've read a ton about it and found a good website about psychological diagnoses that calls on mental health professionals and regular people who have the assorted diagnoses sharing their experiences with the illnesses and treatments.  I'll see if I can find it again and link it here.

Editing to add: I found the website.  And I am going to admit, Siri brought me the link when I was exasperated, sitting outside of my house because I was afraid to cross paths with my landlord.  I actually said, "Help! Does my landlord have borderline personality disorder?" It took me to this site called The Mighty, and an article about five things people with BPD are doing when you think they are "manipulating" you.  It was quite helpful to me.  Maybe you will find something helpful there.  Also, check in with your mental health caregiver to make sure the site isn't crackpottery, cuz I'm no expert.

https://themighty.com

 

 

 

[UncleCharlie]

I have little knowledge of the area so I have no specific advice to share, but from a common sense standpoint, your therapist who you indicated you see every week should be your guide. He or she should be seeing what is and isn't working, suggesting new approaches and treatments, not just going thru the motions each week with the same approach. That nothing seems to be working and you're having to turn elsewhere for advice as to what to do next says that person is not doing his or her job. Ask them what other ideas they have and if they don't have any, find a new therapist who might approach your treatment differently than your current therapist. And just to be clear, it's great that you reached out here. The more avenues you can explore and the more ideas you can get, the better but your therapist should be the one pulling all those ideas together into an actionable treatment plan and if that's not happening, change your therapist. Best of luck.