Just reading that I would say my unprofessional opinion is that you earned your rest! Sounds like you worked hard! I mean, my guess is somebody who DIDN'T want to get better wouldn't be saying "This was the hardest thing ever but here's the good stuff I got out of it." That's impressive, man, good work.
Yes It sounds like you have a path now. Keep up the good work!
Thanks for the kind words y'all Still a long process to get through. I am doing more DBT now moving forward, along with twice a week doing group sessions of other people who either have BPD or are suffering from severe or chronic depression. It will be a good thing to get me out and about more. Slowly getting there and taking things one day at a time. Thanks as always for the support here, it truly means a lot!
So DBT therapy sucks. Its extremely intensive and I am trying to work and find a job but doing so with this therapy is impossible. Im not sure how anybody can do this. Obviously its only been a week but its simply too much for me. Another victory for BPD!
Mike Barrett said: "So DBT therapy sucks. Its extremely intensive and I am trying to work and find a job but doing so with this therapy is impossible. Im not sure how anybody can do this. Obviously its only been a week but its simply too much for me. Another victory for BPD!"I understand it is brutal and a long hard process, but you really should continue treatment.Take it at your own pace though, you shouldn't be rushing it or be forced to rush it, you should do it as you feel comfortable. It is extremely damaging to rush such a mentally intrusive process.Baby steps x
I feel for you Mike.
Sorry about that, man. Sometimes people don't have anything in them to spare to share a burden. And sometimes people are a-holes.
My hat is off to you for your honesty and self-awareness, which is HUGE. A lot of people with BPD are either in self-denial or refuse to be diagnosed which can lead to mass destruction. As for the date, though I know it's no real consolation for his behavior, at least it was only a few dates in instead of a few years in. Have you checked with any LGBT group resources in your area? There are kind and supportive hotties out there. They might be hard to find, but they DO exist! Namo is one of them.
HA! And MisterMatt is obviously good at helping with depression and anxiety by making somebody laugh.
I wish I could help but hopefully others here can assist you. Hang in there !!
Sorry, tad late responding to you all. Very kind repsonses as always which I do genuinely take to heart ,so I appreciate you guys! Sadly not many LGBT groups in my area, they exist, but they're just simply not great. Not even talking about eye candy they just aren't well run or organized cause its a much smaller community. Im doing better, I definitely know that guy is an a-hole and his comment speaks to him and not me but its certainly frustrating. It in no way diminishes my friends struggle as everything is relative to ones life, but hearing how they go on dates frequently (forget the fact they're straight and thins have in general been easier for them) and don't have things work out then get so frustrated I sometimes wanna be like, "You're gonna be fine" when I know, someone like myself, won't be. Maybe its a selfish thought, but I genuinely believe I just won't be able to find love with this disease. It sucks, and it doesn't make me not feel bad for any of my friends but I'm also like, ya, you guys will be fine. This is a temporary issue for them while I feel mine is life long. But again, might be too self pitying
There's a very effective treatment for BPD called dialectical behavior therapy, or DBT. I'd check to see if there is any availability for it in your area--usually there is in large metropolitan areas. You have to be willing to commit to changing certain behaviors and patterns, of course (which it sounds like you would be).
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